Wow!!! Is it true? Is my baby already twelve? TWELVE? I still can't believe it. Jaxon is 12! I've been reminiscing about his life and wanted to share a few of my thoughts.
I cried as my heart filled to capacity with love when my little man was born! I could tell very quickly that he was a smart boy and a fun-loving person. As he has grown, I have seen these traits brought out in various ways. But he's not without trial or struggle. Since our move, Jaxon's been diagnosed with ADHD and a writing disability. He also has some obsessions and compulsions, but not serious enough to be a diagnosis. The psychologist says Jaxon's "extremely bright" but he has some social struggles as well. Since Jaxon was two years old, I've known all of these thing. In my heart I knew he was different. I know all boys are rambunctious and wild, but I could just feel something was special about MY boy. It's been such a relief to finally have it known and learn to deal with it properly. He's a smart boy! He's a good boy! And he's growing into such a great young man!
Jaxon received the Aaronic Priesthood a week after his birthday (thanks to Bishop Huntsman, Dale Anderson, and Randy Christofferson for being there for us) and has since been able to carry out the duties involved with this special honor. I'm so proud of him! I get down on him a lot and sometimes I get frustrated that he's not who I thought he would be or who I think he should be, but I'm slowly learning (finally) that he is himself! I appreciate that for what he's been through and for what he's dealt with he's done amazingly well! This kid's gonna go far!! I love him; my firstborn, my Jax!
As I cried when receiving my son, I weep with joy to see how far he's come and at the same time my heart aches as I have to learn to let go (cut those ties) and help him transition into his own strong, confident, helpful being. It's exciting and scary and I do not know what I am doing. But I'm bound to learn.
Since I only have 6 years left with Jaxon at home, I've decided I've got to get myself organized and help him prepare for a mission and for life in the real world. I'm going to use the Scout handbook, scriptures, talks and quotes to help me, and I'm planning for my next post to be my "rough draft".
I'd really appreciate your input, advice and support in this endeavor. I hope that by training ONE, I'll actually be training them all! It'll be easier with the next kids since I'll have a plan/template in place, but I'm sure they'll all pick up on it. I hope this "training"/preparation for going out into the world helps me be a better mom in the process. And I know it'll be a process. With what I've already got in place, it's a good start but I need to step it up!
So this blog is now dedicated to our "Journey To the REAL WORLD!" I want to record our progress, our struggles, our failures, our "get back ups", and I hope to learn a LOT along the way.... and who knows, maybe you will too. :)
5 comments:
Love it. Yes, age 12 is such a "oh my gosh" age for our firstborn, huh? I think the truth of it finally hits us: they won't be with us forever; we have such a LOOOONG way to go in preparing them for life; how much should we protect them and how much should we allow them to experience. And then there's the breaking it all down into categories: physically, spiritually, emotionally, socially, mentally.... It can be overwhelming.
Good luck in your goals. Looking forward to reading and learning. Heaven knows, I am NOT prepared to raise a teenager in this world, and I sure need all the help I can get! :/
Great idea, sis! I'll be reading it all and will be learning from you too because I know that in the blink of an eye my little Audrey will be 12...ok, I can't think about that yet! I love you.
Awe... You're amazing Boof! I don't know how you do it all, but some how you do! I can't believe how much Jaxon has changed/grownup since the last time I saw him! He's definitely growing into a young man! I love you & look forward to reading more!
So I totally thought it was Cody writing when I read the part about crying when Jaxon was born.
Duty to God is the program that helps boys become young men. I'm glad you're training Jax to be a good example. It will make a great impact on his brothers and sisters.
I LOVED reading this post. I remember when Jaxon was born and I was so proud of him as well. :) Such a fun time those Logan days! He has great parents, he is learning from the best of the best and will go far in life.
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